Too Close

I don't wanna open up, I don't wanna think about it
I don't wanna show my feelings anymore, mm-mmm
If I never talk a lot, will anybody understand it?
Do I have to hide my fears in these four walls?
'Cause you ripped my heart out when I gave you love
And made me feel weak when you gave it all up
So I lie awake thinking am I not good enough?
And strangers they comment when I'm feeling down
I take it to heart but I keep them around
And I lie awake tryna drown it out
I'm too, too close to losing myself, I'm barely even here
I'm too, too close to losing my senses, does that make me weak?
I'm numb, numb, numb
Should I run, run, run?
I'm too, too close to losing myself
I don't wanna ghost you out, I see you getting mad about it
No, don't judge me on what I've become (Mm-mmm)
Everything is getting loud, and I'm getting down about it
I'll count the days until I'm strong (Mm-mmm)
'Cause you ripped my heart out when I gave you love
And made me feel weak when you gave it all up
So I lie awake thinking am I not good enough?
And strangers they comment when I'm feeling down
I take it to heart but I keep them around
And I lie awake tryna drown it out
I'm too, too close to losing myself, I'm barely even here
I'm too, too close to losing my senses, does that make me weak?
I'm numb, numb, numb
Should I run, run, run?
I'm too, too close to losing myself
I'll drown it out ( too too, too too close to )
I'm too, too close to losing myself
Too, too ( too too close to )
( To losing my self )
I'm too, too close to losing myself, I'm barely even here
I'm too, too close to losing my senses, does that make me weak?
I'm numb, numb, numb
Should I run, run, run?
I'm too, too close to losing myself
So I'll drown it out
But I'm…
I'm too, too close to losing myself
But I'll drown it out
I'm too, too close to losing myself