Harder to Pretend

It's hard to explain why I wanna die
"But how can you say that, when you live a perfect life?"
So don't say "you know just how I feel"
I wish I could tell you how the cold water makes it so real
But I don't know why
Why I wanna drink all the time
But don't worry
'Cause I'll be fine
And no matter how many times
They tell you "don't speak your mind"
Well, it's better to say when you're at your end
'Cause it's harder to pretend
There's no-one to blame, cause it's no-ones fault
It's not out of anger, it's just that I've had enough
So call all my friends - tell them I said
"Thanks for the memories - they're ones that I won't forget"
But I don't know why
Why I wanna drink all the time
But don't worry
'Cause I'll be fine
But know that no matter how many times
They tell you "don't speak your mind"
Well, it's better to say when you're at your end
'Cause it's harder to pretend
I guess it's time
Guess it's time for me to go
But if this is goodbye
I hope you know